wtf.

So my favorite dream website has let me down: I looked up "octopus"

Octopus
To see an octopus in your dream, signifies that you are entangled in some difficult matter or that some situation is clouded. Alternatively, the octopus indicates that you are overly possessive and too clingy in a relationship

yeah ut what does it mean with the f'ing thing climbs onto your head and tries to eat you?


i was on a boat. an old timey tour boat, rickety like the old fashioned glass bottom boats, but with seats like the Pirates ride at disneyland (and no glass bottom). we sat super low in the water, and if i looked to my left, where i sat against the side, the water was merely inches below us. we were touring past an old fasihoned building, made to look like an old river trading post, but actually an inn. all the false doors we passed were actually rooms, but the backs of them because there was nothing leading up to the doors but water - no way in or out. that apparently was on the other side of the building that was not part of the boat tour. there were only a dozen of us, and i was seated by myself.

there were pieces of mossy things floating in the water which sometimes covered the fish that swam by. but for the most part the water was super clear. the girl in front of me dove into the water and swam with a large white fish to the faux dock about 10 feet away from us exclaiming that is where she was getting married. no one thought it odd that she just bailed out of the boat so i didnt say anything either.

from a bit of a distance, in the shallow of the water and right beside the building, i saw "__" (i cant remember its name). it was the 'ancient' black octopus that lived in the waters, reportedly for hundreds of years, and everyone lovingly spoke about him as if he were a grumpy old man. his sightings were rare, given his oily black color, and the fact that this part of the tour was covered by many hut-like awnings to keep the glare of the sun off of the water when touring the port. but i saw him, coasting along the side of the building, just beneath the surface. and then he saw me. and he cut across the water right towards me like a speeding bullet. he climbed up the side of the boat like a black blob, crawled across my lap, up my right side, and onto my head, wrapping his tentacles around my neck and face.

i had instinctively pulled my arms up around my head and covered myself with my hoodie as best i could, because for some reason i couldnt remember if an octopus was poinsonous. i wanted to cover as much of my skin as i could. and wearing my hoodie, arms, and an octopus, i shouted as loud as i could for help, because apparently no one saw what happened.

the couple behind me peeled him off of me and tossed him back in the water. but no sooner did i stand up to get a hold of what had just happened, he climbed back into the boat, across the floor, and began to crawl up my legs, wrapping himself around my waist. as he was at about my knees, reaching up and wrapping around my waist i grabbed the first thing i could find - a kabob stick.

i started stabbing wildly at the black mass between my knees, and other passengers were finally catching on. they started throwing me more kabob sticks (thanks, a-holes) so i could stab it more, and finally he began to melt and drip away like hot lava-like oil.

unfair punishment.

for at least 20 minutes, the dog has been sleeping on the other side of the room. she just got up, walked over to my desk, farted, and walked back to her sleeping spot.

what did i do to deserve that?

Candle Shop renovation

I sat down today and took a look at my candle shop... and I think I need to spruce it up a bit. I've been trying to pump out some bright, fun summery scents like Coconut Lime and Freesia Blossoms. ((Still in the works is a smoothie blend, apricot, canteloupe, and watermelon!))

But I still think it needs ... something.

In addition to brightening up my selection, I'm toying with the idea of changing the way my photos are taken. I love to take macro shots that show the colors and textures up close, but I wonder if shoppers enjoy those photos as much as I do?

Should I add fun text to show off the scent and the feeling I want to get across to potential buyers? Or is it enough to show just the candles themselves?

I've put together a little survey... I would truly appreciate your feedback!

Click Here to take survey

yes.

i feel good today. sort of a giant weight lifted from my shoulders, temporarily of course, kind of feeling. its like when you get your first paycheck after several months of unemployment or when you make it to the bathroom just "in time".

my situation, however, is the first rather than the latter.

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work: day four

so... i took a quiz on facebook once upon a time ago, ''what 80s movie defines you?'', and my result was Say Anything.. Fabulous movie, if i had to be anything i'm glad it was a john cusack flick...however, this title should not literally translate into real life. there is nothing on my forehead that says 'say anything' or 'tell me your whole life story' or even 'we just met, i'd love to hear about your menstral cycle stories and how much you love tequila' ...

i miss writing this way...

ok so i am catching up on my 'social netoworking' skills and decided that i cannot exclude myspace any longer. too many of my friends are still there, and i miss them. they are not on facebook, most of them, so i have to play both sides. it is what it is. anywhoo...

i was looking through some of my old blogs on myspace and found this one, from nearly two years ago. but it struck me, one because i had completely forgotten about it, and two, because its still true:

1000 miles away
i want to meet a child in mozambique. i want to ask him where he sleeps at night. i want to ask him about his favorite color and the dreams he awakes with. i want to touch his nose and make a silly pinkie swear. give him a balloon and a rice crispie treat. a twistie straw and a flintstone vitamin. i want to give him a best friend and a game they can share.

i want to write in the colors with which i dream. i want to speak with the tones that beat in my chest. i want to light the world with the candles i make. i want to make a difference to at least one person. i want to capture light in all its beauty, put them on bilbourds across the world, then simultaneously set them ablaze. i want to ruin pixie sticks. i want everyone to have at least one gummy worm. i want dancing to become prescribed therapy. i want to send slushies to the kid in mozambique.

i once read that if you write Thank You's on small sheets of paper and put them in a small box - cigar box, jewelry box, etc - that they will become part of your every day. like 'thank you for the most efficient copy machine repairman in the city' and he will become what you say 'thank you' for already having. part of the self-fulfilling prophecy i suppose. i tried it. i dont think the rolodex was the proper sort of box for this type of life changing magic.

i want to adopt a million dogs to give them a special life, on a farm where they can chase chickens. too bad for the chickens, but the dogs will be happy. i want kirby to swim right-side-up. i want azreal to love mew again. i want a lot of things...

i want to hear the sound of birds singing and actually enjoy it. i want to smell roses while they are still in a garden. i want to smell the sea. rain. wet concrete. popsicles.

i want to meet a buddist. breathe in his peace. learn of gods and wisdoms. even if only in stories. good stories, not gods that thrive on war. i want to remove this blindfold to find there really is a pinata, and find reassurance that i'm not just swinging at air with a wooden bat. perhaps a giant carrot. either way, what am i fighting for? against? with or without?

there is a path. green. yellow. orange. red. and blue. with a giraffe as my guide. ...man i need sleep.

"...what kind of scale compares the weight of two beauties, the gavity of duty or groundspeed of joy? tell me what kind of guage can quantify elation? What kind of equation could i possibly employ?..." AD

there's just more to life than this.

when my hubbs is out of town, i just can't sleep. i drown myself in crafting and watching movies and i'm up till i realize how late it is and fall over into bed.

scream #1: this morning i overslept.

i woke to the cat, who had snuck into my bedroom, lying his f@t A$s on my chest, pushing on my throat. i couldn't get moving in time to make my first class this morning, not that i cared, because i dislike that class very much, and since my final is next week i do not care about missing one more time. my second class, however, i had to go to. so i readied myself and went off to school.

i came home from school chipper and looking forward to my job interview at 3pm. i had a plan, things to do until it was time to get ready. i was excited to get dressed up, as its been quite a while, and i was looking forward to wearing my new suity skirt and vest ensamble with the cute silver top with plum colored polka dots. i spent nearly 20 minutes fussing over pantyhose, choosing the right color, then deciding to skip them cuz i couldn't find shoes to go with pantyhose... make up, hair, perfume, all nice. ready to go...

scream #2: and as i'm picking up a purse to swap into, a button pops off... seriously? i've never worn this before, just pulled the tags off! a button. came off my right sleeve, not in a place that i could easily cover, and i had no jacket that matched my silvery plummy gray outfit.. so in a flash i had to completely change.

scream #3: tried a new route to job locale, and almost was late. but on time, i met the manager and was offered the job!

scream #4: why doesnt anyone answer their phone when you have good news?

i went through the drive through to order celebratory taco bell.

and i've been on the couch ever since. time goes by so quickly when the sun is up all day.

Coconut Lime candles

It's official. I've given in to color. I made a new set of candles this week, and boy are they bright! Electric lime green with mottling, and scented with coconut and limes. They are adorable, and would make a great accent to a back yard barbeque!

Here's the super mottled tapered hexagon, now available on Etsy:





The pillars and votives:



I'm looking for some other bright and fun scents/colors to make... suggestions? I'm thinking that the next batch may be bright pink watermelon or orange cantaloupe...

jazzed for more

Made some new smellies yesterday, and now I'm jazzed to make more!

These creamy springy green pillars (there are votives, too!) are exactly what I needed to refresh my creative scentenergy!


I'm usually a sucker for any warm, rich foodie-type scent - but this week I was craving something fresh. This mix of Rosemary and Ylang Ylang was just what the doctor ordered! It brightens my day with the clean, refreshing fragrance and the light spring green color.


Rosemary is a woody, fragrant herb that has been associated with improving memory. It is traditionally used in weddings and other ceremonies as a symbol of remembrance.


Ylang Ylang is rich and deep with notes of rubber and custard, and bright with hints of jasmine and neroli. It is a flower derived from the rainforst cananga tree. In Indonesia, its petals are spread on the beds of newlyweds.


This candle set will make a lovely handmade wedding gift!



I'm now offering a free tart with any purchase over $10 (before shipping). There are several scents to choose from, just let me know which one is your favorite! See my shop for details!