Monday, November 23, 2009
today
hubbs had a tube implanted in his mouth at the top of his gums where his upper lip meets the upper gum - where his incision was from fixing his cheekbone. it got infected and needs to drain. cah cah
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
17 nov
first full day back to school. got a lot of catching up to do. jm is eating chunky soup and had a little garlic bread mush. perhaps things are looking up a little.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
15 nov 09
work today. it was ok. hard to deal with everyone asking how we are holding up. hard to talk to pam today, and to hear her cry. at some point, i'll have to come back and explain whats happened this week. i dont have the energy now.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
the downward spiral
and so it seems our previous landlord is willing to 'split' the difference with us, charging us nearly $700 in 'split' rent and repairs, but quoted our return at only $800, which means either they cant add or they're totally ripping us off. the repairs, by the way, were all on damages we reported when we moved in. but conveniently, they have 'lost' our check-in sheet from both the move-in and the move-out. so they cannot prove them either way. and we cant either. furthermore, in researching my rights, it seems they were supposed to provide us, in writing, an itemized request to make repairs prior to their keeping our deposit, which they did not, and they are beyond their 21 calendar day limit in keeping any funds.
so if my interpretations are correct, we are to receive our deposit in full.
however, cheryl schaumberg is now 'with another client' and will not take our call, nor will she comply with our request to return our call tomorrow i'm sure.
as soon as we can, we're going to navy legal.
neither of our schedules is forgiving at this time and we cant seem to find a moment together that we can sit in line at the legal dept for hours on end. cross your fingers for us.
oh, wait. there's more.
This just in:
JM's uniform allowance on his last check was about $300, but his uniforms will cost about $500. ha.
SWC (Southwestern College, where I currently attend) begins registration for Spring 2010 on Monday, Nov 9, 2009. My registration 'appointment' isnt until Nov 17th at 2pm. Guaranteed that classes I need will be gone. I seriously need to consider transferring to another community college, but all are facing similar problems. So is it worth it? I have to pay for my classes within 5 days of registering, or I will be dropped from all unpaid classes to make room for another student, which due to budget constraints and a rise in need, will be more strict than ever. Thanks uncle navy, cuz I can't afford to pay my own tuition next year.
SDSU (San Diego State University) has announced that it is not letting any more students attend classes in Spring 2010.Aless students will be able to attend university. Those who are accepted to begin classes next fall will be paying $600 more than students that started there this fall. The Transfer Agreement Guarantee between SDSU and SWC that currently guarantees transfer eligibility between schools is now being modified. It will state that 100% of pre-transfer requirements will have to be completed at SWC, and since SWC is cutting 467 classes there's a good chance those classes wont exist. What that means is this: Almost no one will be covered in that agreement because if a student cannot get a class they need through SWC they will not be guaranteed transfer to SDSU via the community college transfer program.
Leaving no stone unturned, California budget constraints have also forced UCs (University of California, located all over the state) to implement tuition hikes (not once, but twice) and enrollment cuts by approx 4,600 students. CSUs (California State Universities, also with multiple locations) will be cutting enrollment by 40,000 over the next year.
What does this mean? I'm phukd.
Now, I write a letter to Mr Obama.
so if my interpretations are correct, we are to receive our deposit in full.
however, cheryl schaumberg is now 'with another client' and will not take our call, nor will she comply with our request to return our call tomorrow i'm sure.
as soon as we can, we're going to navy legal.
neither of our schedules is forgiving at this time and we cant seem to find a moment together that we can sit in line at the legal dept for hours on end. cross your fingers for us.
oh, wait. there's more.
This just in:
JM's uniform allowance on his last check was about $300, but his uniforms will cost about $500. ha.
SWC (Southwestern College, where I currently attend) begins registration for Spring 2010 on Monday, Nov 9, 2009. My registration 'appointment' isnt until Nov 17th at 2pm. Guaranteed that classes I need will be gone. I seriously need to consider transferring to another community college, but all are facing similar problems. So is it worth it? I have to pay for my classes within 5 days of registering, or I will be dropped from all unpaid classes to make room for another student, which due to budget constraints and a rise in need, will be more strict than ever. Thanks uncle navy, cuz I can't afford to pay my own tuition next year.
SDSU (San Diego State University) has announced that it is not letting any more students attend classes in Spring 2010.Aless students will be able to attend university. Those who are accepted to begin classes next fall will be paying $600 more than students that started there this fall. The Transfer Agreement Guarantee between SDSU and SWC that currently guarantees transfer eligibility between schools is now being modified. It will state that 100% of pre-transfer requirements will have to be completed at SWC, and since SWC is cutting 467 classes there's a good chance those classes wont exist. What that means is this: Almost no one will be covered in that agreement because if a student cannot get a class they need through SWC they will not be guaranteed transfer to SDSU via the community college transfer program.
Leaving no stone unturned, California budget constraints have also forced UCs (University of California, located all over the state) to implement tuition hikes (not once, but twice) and enrollment cuts by approx 4,600 students. CSUs (California State Universities, also with multiple locations) will be cutting enrollment by 40,000 over the next year.
What does this mean? I'm phukd.
Now, I write a letter to Mr Obama.
Friday, October 30, 2009
backfire week
so apparently, the proverbial world is crashing down.
in the last five days I have managed to lose faith in school, work, and my closest friends. and i almost lost the cat and the dog, while plummeting down the back stairs with JM's bike.
so last weekend was one of my very best friend's wedding. four of us girls, who were once inseperable, were to get together and spend friday getting our nails done, then have lunch, then decorate the reception hall and do the rehearsal and dinner. with animosities between parties aplenty, it was apparent to me that this group of girls just isnt what it used to be. all weekend, there were cat fights, shit talking, crying and cold shoulders.
tuesday, in my favorite class, the teacher sat down and opened class with a discussion about giongs on on campus. last thursda there was a studen rally protesting issues raised by budget cuts. apparently, the school has decided to cut 467 classes, laying off 300 teachers, which is approx 25% of all classes offered. Meanwhile, the president has given himself and a handful of administrators a big fat raise. what this means is, that classes that are already hard to come by because of the rediculous registration 'priority' appointments and 'waitlist' procedure this school endures, less 467 classes means there will be students frantic to get into classes. and no classes for them to get into. which also means that students that were in line to finish their general eds in spring (like me) and were planning to transfer to state in the fall (like me) may not be able to because there is a giant chance they cant get into the classes they need to complete. and state university is facing giant budget cuts as well, so there will be no soft admission for students that havnt completed all of there classes on time, no student may have lingering classes to finish during the summer, as they MUST be done in the fall. We've also been advised that 2yr degrees are taking 3-4 years and 4year degrees are taking 6-7 just because of budget constraints on schools.
furthermore, we found that after the rally last week, a few students and faculty marched to the presidents office, and because of a similar protest last year that ended badly, the president has a no tolerance policy for the first ammendment. four teachers were served that night with letters banning them from campus. they cannot finish teaching their classes. which also means that nearly 120 students are unable to finish they classes as planned, unless they decide to stick it out with whatever substitute is sent their way.
(oh yeah, by the way, last week i found out that my tuition reimbursement program is being cancelled. so as of the 23rd of october, i have no more tuition assistance from uncle navy.)
wednesday, feeling oh so down, i get a couple of crappy emails from one of my aforementioned girlfriends and it just set me over the edge. i sent a plea to all parties involved letting them know that i just dont understand what wedge has driven itself between them since i moved away last year and i hope they can fix it. well that backfired. now they are all fighting, no one is talking to me, and i feel like an asshole. it seems that my attempt to open the lines of communication and get everyone to like each other again has only amounted to everyone being tight lipped about whats going on in their lives and will only wear a much bigger false face than before. so be it.
that night, i found out something rediculous happened at work. last monday was our inventory. we had too much backstock, according to the district manager. so two days later, when i got back to work, all the backstock was gone. all of it. asking any questions was staunched by one word answers and managers quickly walking away. there was something wrong, we all knew it, but no one was talking about it. a general uncomfortableness swept in. well apparently, the brilliance of the two leading managers felt it was a good idea to put the backstock in the attic. like shoving all your stuff under the bed when mom tells you to clean your room when you're five.
someone then called the district manager and ratted them out. he stormed through the store, into the attic, found it was true, and ripped some new assholes. of course, no one is talking about this. and the whole store is uncomfortable.
they made the whole crew look like assholes. i feel like they made a fool out of all of us, even though only a couple people were involved. i feel lied to. i feel disrespected. i feel totally uncomfortable there now. and i dont want to work for people who play games like that. but what else can i do?
there's now 300 more people laid off in san diego county, whats there for me to do without flipping burgers?
then last night, i found out my husband is leaving in january afterall, the day after my birthday, for three months.
and today, i put the 'good behavior' collar a friend gave me on the cat, and he immediately ran out the back door, down the stairs and under the neighbor's car. followed by the dog hauling ass down the back stairs chasing the neighbor's cat out into the middle of the road, while i almost fell down the stairs with JM's bike.
on top of it all, we got effed by JM's mission reimbursement. so, it seems, we sincerely cannot catch a break this year. and i dont know how much more i can take. i'm really down right now.
it seems that things with the best intentions really are the worst things to do.
in the last five days I have managed to lose faith in school, work, and my closest friends. and i almost lost the cat and the dog, while plummeting down the back stairs with JM's bike.
so last weekend was one of my very best friend's wedding. four of us girls, who were once inseperable, were to get together and spend friday getting our nails done, then have lunch, then decorate the reception hall and do the rehearsal and dinner. with animosities between parties aplenty, it was apparent to me that this group of girls just isnt what it used to be. all weekend, there were cat fights, shit talking, crying and cold shoulders.
tuesday, in my favorite class, the teacher sat down and opened class with a discussion about giongs on on campus. last thursda there was a studen rally protesting issues raised by budget cuts. apparently, the school has decided to cut 467 classes, laying off 300 teachers, which is approx 25% of all classes offered. Meanwhile, the president has given himself and a handful of administrators a big fat raise. what this means is, that classes that are already hard to come by because of the rediculous registration 'priority' appointments and 'waitlist' procedure this school endures, less 467 classes means there will be students frantic to get into classes. and no classes for them to get into. which also means that students that were in line to finish their general eds in spring (like me) and were planning to transfer to state in the fall (like me) may not be able to because there is a giant chance they cant get into the classes they need to complete. and state university is facing giant budget cuts as well, so there will be no soft admission for students that havnt completed all of there classes on time, no student may have lingering classes to finish during the summer, as they MUST be done in the fall. We've also been advised that 2yr degrees are taking 3-4 years and 4year degrees are taking 6-7 just because of budget constraints on schools.
furthermore, we found that after the rally last week, a few students and faculty marched to the presidents office, and because of a similar protest last year that ended badly, the president has a no tolerance policy for the first ammendment. four teachers were served that night with letters banning them from campus. they cannot finish teaching their classes. which also means that nearly 120 students are unable to finish they classes as planned, unless they decide to stick it out with whatever substitute is sent their way.
(oh yeah, by the way, last week i found out that my tuition reimbursement program is being cancelled. so as of the 23rd of october, i have no more tuition assistance from uncle navy.)
wednesday, feeling oh so down, i get a couple of crappy emails from one of my aforementioned girlfriends and it just set me over the edge. i sent a plea to all parties involved letting them know that i just dont understand what wedge has driven itself between them since i moved away last year and i hope they can fix it. well that backfired. now they are all fighting, no one is talking to me, and i feel like an asshole. it seems that my attempt to open the lines of communication and get everyone to like each other again has only amounted to everyone being tight lipped about whats going on in their lives and will only wear a much bigger false face than before. so be it.
that night, i found out something rediculous happened at work. last monday was our inventory. we had too much backstock, according to the district manager. so two days later, when i got back to work, all the backstock was gone. all of it. asking any questions was staunched by one word answers and managers quickly walking away. there was something wrong, we all knew it, but no one was talking about it. a general uncomfortableness swept in. well apparently, the brilliance of the two leading managers felt it was a good idea to put the backstock in the attic. like shoving all your stuff under the bed when mom tells you to clean your room when you're five.
someone then called the district manager and ratted them out. he stormed through the store, into the attic, found it was true, and ripped some new assholes. of course, no one is talking about this. and the whole store is uncomfortable.
they made the whole crew look like assholes. i feel like they made a fool out of all of us, even though only a couple people were involved. i feel lied to. i feel disrespected. i feel totally uncomfortable there now. and i dont want to work for people who play games like that. but what else can i do?
there's now 300 more people laid off in san diego county, whats there for me to do without flipping burgers?
then last night, i found out my husband is leaving in january afterall, the day after my birthday, for three months.
and today, i put the 'good behavior' collar a friend gave me on the cat, and he immediately ran out the back door, down the stairs and under the neighbor's car. followed by the dog hauling ass down the back stairs chasing the neighbor's cat out into the middle of the road, while i almost fell down the stairs with JM's bike.
on top of it all, we got effed by JM's mission reimbursement. so, it seems, we sincerely cannot catch a break this year. and i dont know how much more i can take. i'm really down right now.
it seems that things with the best intentions really are the worst things to do.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
an experiment
yestserday, and thursday for that matter, i tried to keep a mental record of how many people politely asked "how are you?" after i had asked them first. the results were depressing.
for example, a polite, albeit insincere, converstation may go something like this:
"hello! How are you today?"
"I'm great. How are you?"
"I'm doing well, thank you. Did you find everything ok today?"
"I did! this spinich dip is fabulous..."
you get the idea.
However, more than 50% of the people that came through my line didnt return any polite conversation at all. It was more like this:
"Hi, how are you today?"
"fine."
With which the coversation ends and as I bag their groceries in silence, with a twinge of irritation at their obvious rudeness, I pinch their bread and put heavy things on top of their tomatoes.
Even if you dont like me, think I look weird, or are having a shitty day, at least play the public image politics and be nice to the person who is working on a Saturday to serve you.
for example, a polite, albeit insincere, converstation may go something like this:
"hello! How are you today?"
"I'm great. How are you?"
"I'm doing well, thank you. Did you find everything ok today?"
"I did! this spinich dip is fabulous..."
you get the idea.
However, more than 50% of the people that came through my line didnt return any polite conversation at all. It was more like this:
"Hi, how are you today?"
"fine."
With which the coversation ends and as I bag their groceries in silence, with a twinge of irritation at their obvious rudeness, I pinch their bread and put heavy things on top of their tomatoes.
Even if you dont like me, think I look weird, or are having a shitty day, at least play the public image politics and be nice to the person who is working on a Saturday to serve you.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
creep.
so i'm sitting in the coffee bean and tea leaf. my noon class was cancelled, leaving me with three hours to kill before bio lab. without any lunch to speak of and no enthralling religious discussion to take my mind off of hunger pains, i decided to take the quick jaunt to work to grab a wrap, and head to TCB&TL to make use of their free wi-fi... upon entering, there is a set of three cushy chairs around a marble-esque table on the left side, a cushy chair solo in the right, and a handful of small wood tables and chairs about. there was a businessy man camped in the middle of the three cushy chairs, so i camped in the solo cushy chair on the right. after a handful of minutes typing away here, i just had to look up. and he was staring at me. not like the, we just happened to look up at the same time kind of staring.. it was the i looked over and got lost and so i'm just going to keep staring at you with a look on my face that makes you not really want to know whats going on inside my head cuz i'm a creepy office predator kind-of-stare.
so yeah.
so yeah.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
melissa's bachelorette
last night we took melissa to dinner at the Wrigley Mansion in Phoenix to celebrate her marriage. She wanted the four of us to get all gussied up and have a nice dinner, rather than a rediculous embarrassing bachelorette party.
We got lost, of course, getting to the mansion. The home is beautiful, though under-budgeted and not as upkept as I'd have imagined. You are free to wander the home, but most rooms are either empty or filled with large tables and chairs for banquets or meetings.
dinner is a relatively private room, only six tables, seated in a room full of floor to ceiling windows with a view of the city from the Biltmore looking south. Dinner was delish, with complimentary champagne, and desert was fab.
All in all, it was a wonderful night. I wanted just an evening with the girls, a time to relax with friends and thats exactly what we did. I feel a peace in me that i've been missing for a while with such a hectic schedule and no friends to spend time with. Melissa had an equally lovely time, and that is really what matters most. 
Sunday, September 13, 2009
sigh of relief
i hit a breaking point yesterday, emotional, zombified and exhausted - i've been going 7 days a week and havnt had a full day off in close to a month. i've gotten to the point that all i do when i'm home is sleep. the house is a MESS, which stresses me out. i've lost all energy to cook, so i've been eating poorly, which doesnt help my energy level. i'm so tired, in fact, that i've been making lots of mistakes. i miskeyed my acct number on two bills and racked up $50 in charges. i'm a zombie at work, which is dangerous. money has been a huge stressor since JM left (long story). so i went on a binge and ordered a pair of shoes from DSW (they had a big online clearance event) and stupid fedex turned the pkg over the post office to deliver - AND I'VE LOST MY MAIL KEY! so there's a fabulous pair of brand new shoes sitting in our mailbox and i cant get to them. taunting me. i have two tests this coming week that i'm not prepared for. i work tonight till 10pm, open tomorrow at 7am with school till 7pm, then tuesday school runs from 930am to 7pm, wednesday i work at 830am with school till 730pm, and thursday runs school at 9am with work till 10pm. i just cant catch a break.
so i broke down and rearranged my work availability. starting ths week, with my trip to phoenix, i have every friday off until the holidays. So, friday... yeah, i can hardly wait. i'm so excited i can barely stand it.
so i broke down and rearranged my work availability. starting ths week, with my trip to phoenix, i have every friday off until the holidays. So, friday... yeah, i can hardly wait. i'm so excited i can barely stand it.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
totally overwhelmed...
i havn't had a day off since i was sick almost three weeks ago, and that was only because i missed two days of school in a flu coma on the couch. i am totally wiped out.
next weekend i am travelling to phx for a bachelorette party, a bridal shower, and two birthday parties. two weeks ago i dreamed that i was at work on the night of bachelorette party and that everyone was so mad at me for being late... so i asked one of the managers to double check that i had requested the right days off because i was worried. we checked, and the dates were correct. so when i got to work yesterday and checked my schedule for next week - lo and behold they scheduled me to work on friday. i had to leave a note for the schedule girl to let her know, and i also asked her to give me a permanent day off on the weekend so that i can at least have one day off a week. we'll pick up that discussion when i get in today. who knows how that will go over.
i really wish i could just be unemployed again and focus on school. i have two tests this week that i am not prepared for. homework aplenty that i havn't done. packing to do. apt hunting that needs to be done. laundry. house cleaning. all things i just cant get done with four hours a day that i have to myself. on top of the stress of our growing financial obligations, and loneliness of my husband having been gone for six weeks...i'm loosing it, sincerely.
i'm going to offer my shift to anyone who wants it tomorrow. tampon-and-tequila girl at work is always begging for hours. if she wants it, she can have it.
and now i have 35 minutes before i have to get ready for work...
next weekend i am travelling to phx for a bachelorette party, a bridal shower, and two birthday parties. two weeks ago i dreamed that i was at work on the night of bachelorette party and that everyone was so mad at me for being late... so i asked one of the managers to double check that i had requested the right days off because i was worried. we checked, and the dates were correct. so when i got to work yesterday and checked my schedule for next week - lo and behold they scheduled me to work on friday. i had to leave a note for the schedule girl to let her know, and i also asked her to give me a permanent day off on the weekend so that i can at least have one day off a week. we'll pick up that discussion when i get in today. who knows how that will go over.
i really wish i could just be unemployed again and focus on school. i have two tests this week that i am not prepared for. homework aplenty that i havn't done. packing to do. apt hunting that needs to be done. laundry. house cleaning. all things i just cant get done with four hours a day that i have to myself. on top of the stress of our growing financial obligations, and loneliness of my husband having been gone for six weeks...i'm loosing it, sincerely.
i'm going to offer my shift to anyone who wants it tomorrow. tampon-and-tequila girl at work is always begging for hours. if she wants it, she can have it.
and now i have 35 minutes before i have to get ready for work...
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